hahaha don't worry about not being proactive man.. well actually you should worry about it, it means you realize your problem, all you need to do is act on it, but you are 19 years old? youre gonna evolve like a pokemon now, in 5 years time you will look back at how you are now and you will see how different you became, and with a good core like the one you have I am sure you will change so much for the better.
IMO, its good that you know what is good for you and what is not, but it is equally important to know WHY this is so. Personally, I dont like to regret over things so I prefer to learn something from my past mistakes, although thankfully I don't consider them to be so bad, rather I see them as just a phase that I needed to go through to realize that what I had was good enough to begin with.
I haven't been fasting this year, I haven't missed more than 5 days in total since I began fasting when I was 8 years old, so I feel so guilty about not fasting this year. I even had a nightmare the other day, my younger sister starts to patronize me and the last thing she said before I woke up was "you lack faith". Its such a crap way to wake up.
To be honest, I fasted the first 3 days, but I felt so terrible, 20 hours long, living all alone in a city that is incompatible to Ramadan (in fact even on a normal day it can be difficult since almost everything they eat has pork in it), by the time I break fast I only have 1 hour before kitchens close and suhur was difficult since I had to wake up after 3 hours from adhan fajr to go to work.
But the worst part was the quality of work I was putting in, since I am the coach I felt it was very unfair to the players that I was not giving them my best work, so I decided to stop after 3 days but I plan to compensate for it at a later time.
Well you better start picking up the pace or else I just might abandon this forum forever I love how you describe your personal struggles through Nutella I am sure you can use this as a theme for a comedy show its hillarious
You know I was also obsessed with Nutella, not to the same degree as you, you took it to another level, but I have a mole next to my lips and my own siblings used to tell me to properly wipe off the Nutella stains off my face
In other news, I have extended my stay here in Europa, I am coaching out of contract players during the off-season, it is part of my internship, I hope it will be good enough for me to find a good job with a club when I go back to the Middle East.
What about you? How are you coping with Ramadhan in this heat? Its 20 hours long here in Espana, such torture!
the problem waas when i came, the internet blocked this website due to adult material and stuff like that
so we got new internet and i was able to get on the site as normal
i am in somalia. funny eh. and i intended to stay here for a month, but dragged it to a year. i really missed the site, and the noce thread but ill visit this site much more often now. i missed the people, and its really difficult to watch some games but the moment noce scored against barca, was the epitome of joy in my life. thanks to the lil green barca fan in the middle, we didnt prevail. no problem. chelsea will kick ass